Do We Fight for What We Want or Give Up? (KAT)

[knox]

Knox watched her blush and couldn't help the faint sigh that escaped him. He brushed a hand back through her hair as he pulled his face back from hers to lean back against the couch a bit more. "Can we not do that?" He asked, a brow perking up slightly. He kept a hold on her hand and continued letting his fingers run through her curls but there was a slight irritation to his expression and tone. He licked at his lips and figured he would need to explain more because she probably wouldn't understand.

"I mean come on, Kat. That's not us." He said with a shake to his head. "We don't giggle and blush. We don't get nervous and stutter. That's not how we are.. hell, it's not who we are. Can we not let this-" he waved a hand between them, talking about their feelings "-effect how we act?" He asked as he watched her. Knox hated seeing her be this nervous little schoolgirl around him. That wasn't Kat, at least not the Kat he had fallen for. He didn't want either of them to start acting different just because they knew that they loved one another. That was pointless.

In the end something like that was bound to affect the way that they felt about one another. Which was why he was trying his damnedest to keep acting like himself, to make sure there wasn't a big change in how he was now from what he was a week ago. He tugged playfully at one of her curls, almost feeling as if he'd been scolding her, which wasn't what his intention had been at all.

[Katerina Night]

Hearing the sigh from his lips she raised a brow just as his face pulled back to look at hers. Blinking those eyes a moment as he spoke before clearly not understanding and shook her head indicating. Catching the irritation and tone though he hadn't pushed her away or let go so that was helping. When he spoke she sucked in a breath before looking down a moment and closing her eyes. Yea she kind of was feeling the same. "I'm not trying to do it Knox, just I can't explain it. Like I have no control myself over what happens and its irritating. You think I like be that aire-heady, giggling girl on the guys arm? Hell no!" Sighing softly before she leaned against him a little more.

Staring out a moment towards the window before she squeezed his hand a little and spoke out. The sound of her voice was down yet he would know the tone anyhow. "I think it has something to do with these dreams or let me rethink that nightmares I've been having since the clinic." A growl echoing deep in her chest that easily showed the male she didn't like them period. The fact they are happening after the clinic only made her more irritated.

"I hate to even think it, but Knox I think something happened neither of us know about there. Something that is slowly effecting me now and that both irritates and worries me. You know I don't like not knowing, its why having my memories lost upsets me so much and not remember from when I wake to before the black-outs come." Slowly turning her head and looking back up at him, those green eyes rimmed in a reddish/black only proving her point more about NOT liking any of this.

Pulling her hand away slowly before pushing herself up and walking over to the window. Where a few moments later her fist would connect against the wall right beside it. "What.The.Hell.Did.They.Do.To.Me?" Each word accented in a tone he would easily recognize whenever her temper was flared. Bastards! They have me so tightly bound, confused and partly worried I can't act right. Damn it."Loosening her fist so that her hand was pressed against the wall, red and slightly bleeding but it would heal so she didn't worry about it.

Nails suddenly lengthening and dragging down the side leaving large cuts that sliced through the paint, wood and beyond.

[knox]

Knox believed her when she spoke, that she wasn't intending to do everything that she was. He believed that. After all this whoe thing was so new for both of them that things were going to take time to get used to, but he just didn't want things to be different. If things were different he wasn't sure he would still feel the same as he had before and he didn't want to run that risk. He brushed a hand back through the curls again, his eyes on hers with a vague smile at his lips. "I know you don't like being that girl. Hell, I don't like you being that girl. I hate that girl." He added the last bit with a grin to show more of the tease in his tone, though at the same time he was quite serious. He hated giggly air-headed bimbos. For him, those girls were good for one thing. Kat wasn't one of those girls.

His brows furrowed though when she mentioned having nightmares. He couldn't imagine what they would be about, there wasn't much the woman was afraid of after all. After wetting his lower lip and clearing his throat he spoke. "It's human nature to have nightmares after all that crap, Kat. I mean, what normal person wouldn't?" He asked as he watched her.

As she spoke again about neither of them knowing what could have happened there he looked away from her, down to his knees. He knew. Knox thought she knew too, which was why he didn't say anything. The only reason he had any kind of inkling as to what had happened was because Johunas had been oh so kind as to share his master plan. Dick. He said nothing though as he watched her pull away and stand to walk over by the window. Though when her fist connected with the wall he pulled himself off the couch and moved to stand behind her.

Large hands found her shoulders and turned her around to face him. "Breathe, Kat. You'll pop a vein." He said in a lame attempt at a joke to lighten to mood while his right hand raised to cup her cheek. "Look, you're out of there now. I'm out of there, they aren't gonna attack us at home. Hell, they might not even come at us again. Maybe they had their fill with us and are going after someone else. I don't care as long as it's not us. We've gotta try and get past this, put it behind us and forget we were there." He said, letting out a low breath and swallowing hard. "Gotta get on with life, Kat. Can't keep dwelling on the shit we can't change." He said as his thumb brushed over her cheek, his eyes locked against hers.

[Katerina Night]

Kat was many things, but a liar wasn't one especially not to Knox and not about this. Listening to him as he spoke and let out a breath before giving a faint nod in understanding. Catching the grin and smiled back slightly to him rather glad he didn't like girls like this. But she wasn't sure what the hell was up and why she kept acting the complete opposite of who she was. Licking her lips some before hearing him when she spoke about the dreams and looked away from his dark eyes.

Standing up near the window her temper was out and she hated not knowing what was going on. It pissed her off and the fact he knew wouldn't help, but she wasn't aware right now. But who knows maybe it was better she not know the truth. Barely catching him getting up before his hands were on her shoulders and making her turn around, narrowing her eyes a little at his joke before sighing.

"Knox its not that simple and forgetting the nightmares I only wish I could. But when they seem to come everynight, bringing about the same pain and horror. Showing me I can only assume could be the future with you and I being together with a family. I'm carrying our baby happy one minute only to have it become darker when you turn. Slapping me, calling me a whore that I am the worse mother ever that you hate me and what is growing inside me. It is like a knife being thrusted into my chest and twisted to make the pain even worse."

Shaking her head before those eyes closed as he touched against her cheek and she inhaled trying to take comfort in him. She didn't want to believe them, the nightmares were haunting and scared her about what was coming. It made no sense why she was having them. Shaking her head before leaning in closer to him and resting her forehead against his shoulder, her own hands coming to lay at his waist. Keeping them together although it was clear she didn't have a tight enough hold that he couldn't easily pull away.

[knox]

Knox watched her, listening as she spoke. He showed no sign whatsoever that he'd had a similar dream before it had been taken from him with only a few short words from Johunas. The pain didn't show on his features or in his eyes. Maybe it was just because he was good at hiding things. But hearing that she had dreamed of them having a child just as he had made his heart ache. Hell he couldn't even understand why. He hated kids. Had for years. So what was it about Kat that made him want something more out of life?

His thumb brushed over her cheek until she leaned in to rest against his shoulder. Knox slipped his arms around her waist and rested his cheek against the top of her head with a low sigh as he rocked them gently back and forth as if they were dancing before a faint laugh slipped past his lips. "Well, here's one reason you can forget the dream, on reason you can realize that it is a dream and that nothing is gonna happen ike that. I can't have kids, Kat." He said quietly with a tiny shrug of his shoulders.

"Besides, I'm not gonna knock you around... Well.." He paused with amusement in his tone. "Not unless you ask for it." He said, the smile easily heard in his voice. Of course he was talking about sex.. What else would he be talking about? It was Knox after all.

[Katerina Night]

While she spoke, Kat had been watching or keeping a sense of how he might react yet didn't hear or see anything. So it had her a little confused if he cared or was just that good and completely concealing his feelings. Which didn't surprise her honestly. Brushing her lips some over her lips before inhaling and letting it out very slow. Feeling his thumb against her cheek and allowed her eyes to close from his comfort wrapping around his back for a moment.

Not sure he was hurting to think about them with children, wasn't like she ever thought about kids either. Never considered herself the mothering type although after those dreams she was starting to change her mind. Feeling as he rocked them and it was slowly helping her to feel a little better, looking back up as he laughed. Raising a brow some till he spoke blinking her eyes at what he tells her before those lips pursed. "You..can't have kids...but than why did my dreams..." Shaking her head unsure what to think about them now though it made her feel a little better.

A faint hint of sadness slipping through before she pushed it aside not wanting to worry about it. It had only been the dreams that she started thinking on being a mother now that she knew it wasn't possible for them. Well she wasn't going to keep it as an option, after all Kat and Knox honestly didn't look to be parent types. Did they? Her thoughts shifted as he threw that tease back at her and she slowly looked up through her lashes. A darkness coming to those green eyes before a low, playful growl was heard. "Are you sure about that Knox? It could so easily be the other way around you know...where your the one getting knocked around."

[knox]

Knox continued to rock them back and forth, swaying them gently since he could feel her relaxing from it. Maybe that would help a little. Hopefully she never asked him to dance, cause that wasn't gonna happen. He couldn't dance to save his friggin life. Swaying was the best he could do. When she spoke he just shook his head. "Nope, no kids." He said. His voice didn't give away the small ache in his heart. He'd never wanted kids before, never thought of himself as paternal or a fatherly figure. Hell he wasn't even an older brother (that he knew of) so he'd never even had siblings to do anything with.

The problem was, having the idea planted about being a father (even if he'd never even know the child) kind of made him wonder about the possibility. And then to have it ripped away? That was what was the worst. The idea had been planted just long enough to make him think about it and then it was stolen from him before he could even come to a decision on whether he would ever want to be a father or not. And now knowing that he couldn't ever have kids? Well, that sort of made him want one all the more, just to defy the odds. He had a feeling that Johunas wouldn't have lied about it though, after all why should he? He kissed the tip of Kat's nose with a small smile. "Dreams are just fears or wishes brought to light in a dream, Kat. Nothing to worry about, nothing to fear." He said gently.

He could see the sadness and worry in her features. He hated it. Knox licked at his lips as he watched her until her eyes narrowed and she teased him back. A grin filled his lips as he looked down at her. "Oh yeah? Who says I wouldn't enjoy that?" He asked playfully with a wink as he leaned down to brush a quick kiss against her mouth.

[Katerina Night]

The rocking was helping and no he wouldn't be asked to dance, the only time she danced was when she was hunting. I mean come on what kind of guy passes up a woman like her especially when she was in full seduction mode? The answer not bloody many, well straight anyhow. Licking her lips she nodded to his not having kids though didn't see the pain since he hid it so damn well. Guessing kids weren't something he ever thought about or wanted so she wasn't about to ask more on the subject. Merely nodded her head some softly before laying her head back against his shoulder again.

Green eyes closing trying to forget but she just had this odd feeling something wasn't right. That they were possible missing something important and that didn't sit well with her at all. It made her uneasy but she pushed it back for him, nodding a little to his words. "I hope your right. Even though I have never thought about or considered having kids before those nightmares. So it just didn't make sense." Shrugging some after she spoke before leaning back up his kiss to her nose had a low growl slipping out.

Green eyes watching him a moment seeing that tongue brush along his lips and purred out. It was a deep rumble inside her chest before she too smirked at his question. Taking one hand and brushing a finger down his chest slowly, although her eyes remained on his as she spoke relatively soft. Yip playful Kat was out again. "True..who indeed says you wouldn't. But than again baby who says it would be for your pleasure at all. Could be I like seeing you beg." Smiling after before she pulled him back after that quick kiss and got him instead into a much heated one.

[knox]

He shrugged lightly when she spoke, shaking his head gently at the same time. "Sometimes dreams come out of nowhere, even if you never thought about that kind of thing before. Sometimes you just gotta go with it and other's you just have to let it go." He said with another shake of his head, firmly believing what he'd just said. Sometimes you had to push for what you want and others you just had to let go and hope for the best. That applied to everything, not just dreams.

His hands held loosely to her waist as he rocked her back and forth, smirking as she purred. Dark eyes locked against her green ones when her finger ran down his chest. A faint laugh slipped past his lips, listening to her speak. "Me? Beg?" He asked a brow arched up slowly. "Katerina. We've been around each other for almost 8 weeks now. When have you ever known me to beg for anything?" A cocky look came over his features as he stared down at her.

As soon as her lips connected with his own he smirked again just before he pushed her back against the wall. He kept his hands at her waist while holding the kiss. Even with the teasing and talking, he still wasn't pushing for anything. Not right now. Knox was right though, he didn't beg for things. He never needed to. If he wanted something he either took it for his own or just gave that little smirk and smile and things fell right into his lap. No, he didn't need to beg.

[Katerina Night]

Listening to him she let out a deep breath before allowing her eyes to close a moment. Finally nodding her head before once again looking up at him. "Your right I will just try and let it go, just hope they stop happening would help." Noticing his hands still on her waist and she couldn't help mentally smiling. Moving back and forth before raising a brow.

His words about her knowing him not to beg had the female shaking her head, "Never say never Knox dear there is always a first time for everything. Beside you can't resist me." Her own smirk slipping into place as that cockiness came out for her as well. After all two could play that came. Barely noticing at first he pushed her up against the wall.

Slowly moving her own hands up around his neck and pulling him tighter against her with a deep growl slipping out. Allowing those nails once again to caress the hairs along the back of his neck knowing the reactions she would get. But like him she wasn't wanting much at the moment hell she could handle the teasing or just curling up with him. Mm maybe she could get him to be sweet for a change and give her a massage or her mind suddenly going over a few ideas. Holding the kiss content for just letting this happen between them and forgetting about everything else.

After a short time she pulled back, feeling her heart slightly racing and rested her forehead against his. "You know you could be a sweetheart for a change and offer your poor injured lover a massage. She has been through so much it would do her healing well." Smirking as she licked her lips and waited for his response yea she was being a tease and torturing him but hey isn't that just who they were?

[knox]

Knox couldn't help the smirk that tugged at his lips when she spoke. A brow arching up slightly because of it. "Nah-nah-nah. I didn't say never, Kat." He said before letting that part of the conversation die off. The new part was a little more exciting. His tongue brushed over her lower lip as one hand shifted from her waist to her curls. He tucked a few of them behind her ear as he held the kiss, focusing on this moment and nothing else. It was simple enough to focus on that.

Though as she pulled back he let out a silent breath and kept his hold on her while their foreheads touched. A smile pulled at his lips, at least until she spoke. His eyes snapped open and he stared at her for a moment with a look of almost disgust. Knox? Give someone a massage? Okay, it wasn't that far out into left feild.. not really. Finally he nodded. "As long as I don't have to touch your feet.." He said as his nose wrinked up. Knox didn't really like feet, not at all. After all, they were gross. Think of how disgusting feet could get since they were always on the floor. Or the sweat that could build up from being inside shoes all day. No thanks.

[Katerina Night]

Hearing him she rolled her eyes before letting out a low playful growl back to his words but said nothing. Growling again when his tongue brushed over her lips, nipping at him playfully as her fingers gripped at his neck. Yea she could possible let him slip by on that one maybe it just depended. Though with the kiss she was slowly starting to forget that little detail more and more, only staying focused on them.

But she had to get air and when she spoke finally the look he had she didn't miss. Raising a brow some wondering what was wrong before he spoke and she sighed some softly shaking her head a little before smiling some. "Knox baby when I said massage I meant my back, or were ever you wish to massage." Winking at him in a teasing manner before she captured his lips for a brief moment, pulled away and took off out of the room. "OH! Did I mention that if your brave enough to catch me I might submit." Laughing some since neither of them really liked submitting to the other and she was damn sure he would do anything to keep from having too.

[knox]

When she spoke he chucked and shook his head faintly. Knox just didn't like feet, never had. "Good, cause I'm not touchin' your feet." He said with a faint laugh. He'd caught the tease, he'd caught the hidden innuendo. Knox was a master flirt, how could he miss any of it? It was an impossibility for him to have missed it. He smiled lightly as she kissed him again before she pulled back from him. A brow arched as she moved to the door though started to follow her without questioning it. He figured they were probably heading up to the bedroom, not like he would complain about that.

When she spoke, however, he stopped and gave her a curious look before it hit him. A smirk teased the corner of his mouth as he darted out of the room behind her. He raced her to the stairs in order to catch her and actually took the stairs two at a time to close the gap between them. Unfortunately for him, her leaner form could manuever around the corner a lot easier and faster than his broader frame would allow. So naturally he lost some of that speed he'd gained around the corner in the hall and then again on the turn through the bedroom doorway.

So he didn't catch her. Of course she'd had a headstart too. Not that he would complain about that. Sure, Knox could be a sore loser, but with Kat winning and losing didn't really matter that much. And it was amazing to find that he didn't really care about winning or losing. Not with her anyways, anyone else and he'd probably find some technicality to make himself win. His fingers gripped into the doorway to swing himself into the bedroom behind her, dark eyes on her face. A grin pulled at his lips. "Ya know, if you wear me out then there's no way for me give you your massage.." He said while holding the grin.

[Katerina Night]

Kat just rolled her eyes at Knox complaining about feet before letting out a breath and nodding. She wouldn't make him do anything he didn't want to do and he seemed pretty hell bent on not touching feet. Shrugging some she didn't see the issue especially if people were clean, but wasn't about to get into a discussion on feet right now that was for sure. Smirking some knowing full well despite the mention of not touching a certain part of her body, he had of course caught the little message in her words.

Looking over at him from the doorway and saw the look that crossed his face before the smirk once more made an appearance. With that she took off knowing full well he got what she was saying. Though he was right she did have a slight headstart over him and was a little faster given her body tone. But hey was he not a known manipulator or sneak as well? Surely he could think of some way to turn the tables in his favor. Not that Kat would complain. Laughing some when she got to their room just a little ahead of him and stood by the doorway.

Raising a brow some to his words before smiling a little and walked the few feet closer. "Oh now I wouldn't want to wear you out Knox...hmm how can I make sure you have the stamina to work through the night." Those eyes of hers were sparkling almost with mischief that when it came to Kat might not always be a good thing. Or was it? Since she suddenly leaned up and in capturing his lips hard and pushing him up against the wall. A deep growl echoed out of her chest while she playfully pinned his arms to his sides, not that she expected them to remain. The man could easily break loose they both knew it.

[knox]

Of course if the situation had been reversed he would have used it to his advantage. Knox wasn't stupid. And he certainly wasn't going to fault her for it. She was smaller than he was and could manuever around corners easier, she could run a bit faster because there just wasn't as much body mass to her. So, yeah, she was going to be a little quicker around the house. Well, unless he decided to shift and let the demon do his running since it was by far faster than his human form. But what was the fun in cheating? Okay, there was a lot of fun in cheating, he knew that, which was why he cheated with a lot of things. But for now it was fine that she'd beaten him.

He smirked as she spoke, shaking his head lightly. "Well, I'm not sure about that. There's a lot we could do, but I'm not so sure how well it would help my stamina." He said as he flashed a quick wink at her. Of course in that department he always had plenty of stamina. Knox could go for days at a time and Kat had already learned that. Then again, it was probably just the teenage hormones keeping him going more than anything else. Why wouldn't it be?

A smile started at the corners of his mouth when she leaned up to claim his lips. He didn't even fight her when she pinned his arms to his sides, at least not yet. His lips moved seamlessly and easily against hers, feeling the little growl from Kat rumbled through her and left his lips tingling. With a low and playful growl of his own he broke her hold on him to grab both of her wrists in his hands. Without any warning behind it, as she was probably growing used to from him since he rarely gave warning for anything, Knox shifted them around to slam her back against the wall while his arms lifted to push her wrists into the wall above her head. He held them tightly so she couldn't break herself away while he kissed her harder than she had just put on him.